I’ve been here before

It is worth mentioning that this is my second attempt at writing a blog. Last year I started this blog in the hopes of documenting my fundraising efforts for a university led charity I was working with.

I set myself a challenge to run 65 miles in 30 days. I completed the challenge with some hiccups. I got shin splints (it was bad!) and had to cycle some of it. But I only wrote one post for my blog, then I got embarrassed and stopped writing.

A blog seems a very personal thing since it is from my perspective. Like most people I am and always have beed scared of ridicule and judgement. I don’t like the feeling that people are making fun of me behind my back for putting myself out there.

I also worry I will run out of things to write about. I don’t have an interesting life and that has been fine. I have just been going through the motions doing just was is expected of me and I have never really put myself out there. I have lived in my comfort zone quite happily. But now that is different, I am in a completely new territory and now is not the time to play it safe.

I am aware that I am a tiny speck of a human in a world filled with people who are trying to be interesting. Who needs another straight white female who just likes to talk about herself? I have deliberated over this for about a year but then I thought fuck it, I am going to live my own life and do what makes me happy. And if that is writing this blog then so be it.

A New Beginning

On Monday I handed in the last piece of coursework for my honours degree and now I need to figure out what I’m going to do. I’m currently in the limbo stages all graduates must go through between finishing their coursework and graduation. It has only been a few days and I already feel different. This is the first time in my life where I haven’t been in or heading for education. It feels very weird!

Right now I am unemployed and looking for a job. I was lucky enough to not have to work during my education and I am very grateful for that but now I fear I am unemployable. During my education I have worked on building a portfolio for my career in TV production but I am worried thats not enough. However I have a plan…

  1. Get a summer job
  2. Continue writing this blog where I will chronicle both the good times and the bad
  3. Start to write film reviews
  4. Build on my portfolio
  5. Move to Manchester (technically near Manchester)
  6. Volunteer for work experience
  7. Get a job at a production company

Obviously the final goal is going to take some time but that is the dream.